Brittany’s Story, Part Three: Faith Without an Ending

Fear at night during cancer is a particular kind of fear. It is quieter than the daytime kind, and it is harder to talk about in the morning. This is the episode I have been telling you about for three weeks, and I want to ask you for something before you start it. If you can,

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How to Deal With Scanxiety When You’re Waiting on God

If you are reading this while you are waiting on a scan or a set of test results, then learning how to deal with scanxiety is exactly what I want to talk with you about today…and I am so glad you are here. I have walked my own cancer journey, so I know this particular

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Finding Peace: Scanxiety — The Waiting Room Between Scans

If you are waiting for scan results right now, then I want you to know I made this episode with you in mind…and you do not have to sit in that waiting room alone. In fact, the stretch between a scan and its results is one of the hardest parts of the whole cancer journey, and I have walked through it myself.In

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Facing Cancer Alone — Why We Shut the Door, and What It Costs Us

There is a moment right after a diagnosis when almost every one of us does the same thing. We start facing cancer alone — not because anyone abandoned us, but because we quietly decide that is how it has to be. We stop returning calls. We keep the details vague. And we tell ourselves we

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Faith and Fear During Cancer: You’re Not Failing

If you’re a believer walking through cancer and you still feel afraid, let me say something it took me too long to learn: that fear does not mean your faith is failing. Faith and fear during cancer can live in the same heart at the same time — and God is not disappointed in you

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Finding Peace in the Valley of Cancer

When you’re walking through cancer, you don’t need someone to pretend the valley isn’t real. You need to know you’re not walking it alone. That’s the quiet promise tucked inside the most familiar psalm there is — and it’s where I’ve found a peace in the valley of cancer that I could never have manufactured

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Surrendering to God During Cancer: The Bravest Thing You Can Do

Everything in you wants to fight. To control. To manage every scan, every appointment, every possible outcome. I know, because that was me. But somewhere along my cancer journey, I discovered that surrendering to God during cancer wasn’t the white flag I feared — it was the doorway to the only peace that held when

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God as a Relationship, Not a Resource: Letting Go of Control

Letting go of control might be the hardest thing cancer ever asks of you — especially if you have spent your whole life being the person who figures things out. I know, because I was that person. And the truth I had to learn, the same one figure skater Scott Hamilton had to learn, is

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Either Way You Win: Trusting God With Your Cancer Journey

When I talk about trusting God through cancer, I am not talking about pretending you are not scared. I spent the first stretch of my own journey gripping every fear with both hands, so I understand the pull to control what feels completely out of control. But somewhere along the way — in the middle

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When You’re Waiting on God During Cancer — What Silent Saturday Taught Me

If you are waiting on God during cancer right now, this is for you. Waiting for results. Waiting for healing. Waiting for the treatment to work. Waiting for strength to return. Waiting for an answer to a prayer you have been praying for weeks, maybe months. Waiting on God during cancer is one of the hardest

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