Doubting your salvation is not something most people admit to, and it is almost never talked about from a pulpit. This final episode with Dan Green is about two months of exactly that - and about what brought him out the other side.

IF YOU HAVE BEEN DOUBTING YOUR SALVATION, READ THIS FIRST

Dan has never been afraid of dying. He says so himself. This is a man who has walked with the Lord for decades, who has genuinely looked forward to the day he sees Jesus face to face.

And then, in the middle of the hardest stretch of his treatment, something started coming at him in the night. Vivid dreams telling him he was not going to heaven. Dreams of being separated from his Lord. He would wake up terrified. It went on, night after night, for about two months.

So here is what needs saying before you hear a word of it. If something like that has happened to you - if you have laid in the dark doubting your salvation, especially while sick and exhausted and full of medication - you are not crazy, and it does not mean anything is wrong with your salvation. Let that land. It does not mean anything is wrong with your salvation.

Dan himself wondered aloud whether some of it was the medication. He may well be right.

WHAT BROUGHT HIM OUT

He did not feel his way out of it. He read his way out.

For two months he went into the Word looking for the truth, and he found it in the second chapter of Ephesians. By grace are you saved through faith, and that not of yourselves - it is the gift of God, not of works, so that no one can boast.

Not of works. Not of yourselves. And Dan's conclusion was as plain as anything he said all night: "What I was being fed was a lie."

That is worth holding onto if you are doubting your salvation tonight. If something is telling you in the dark that you have not done enough, or been good enough, or that you do not measure up - it is a lie, and it is a lie because your salvation was never resting on your performance in the first place. It rests on Jesus. That is the entire point of grace.

Dan's own words to you: God will bring you through those things. Do not give up, and do not run scared.

I WAS GLAD GOD GAVE ME CANCER

Somewhere past the worst of doubting your salvation, Dan told a woman at church that he was glad God gave him cancer, and she asked whether he ever prayed to be healed.

His answer says everything about where these two years have taken him. He was not as worried about being healed as he was about having a closer walk with the Lord. And then, quietly: "He came through. He came through."

THE PROMISE, AND BOTH HALVES OF IT

Near the end, Dan tells us that early on, out walking by himself, he felt like God told him He was going to heal him. In His time.

And then, without anybody asking him to, Dan guarded it himself. His exact words: "Now that may be here on earth, it may be on my way to heaven."

He did not stop at the promise. He held both halves of it.

That is why this story holds up. Dan is not telling you that enough faith produces a clean scan. He is telling you that Jesus has already settled how this ends, and that it ends well either way. And none of that means you stop asking - pray boldly, ask for exactly what you want, keep asking. Dan is not against that at all.

IF YOU REACTED THE OTHER WAY

Dan has said several times across these episodes that he has never once asked God why. If that is not how you reacted, he has something to say to you, and it is his to say:

"If somebody out there maybe reacted the other way, and it pulled him away from God a little bit - that's okay. God understands that you have a heavy heart. It's hard, it's hard, it's hard, yes it is. But He's waiting right there for you. Just ask Him. Surrender your cancer journey to Him."

That is a man with stage four cancer and a chemotherapy pump running into his side, taking the time to make sure you do not feel like you failed.

WHERE DAN IS TODAY

Doubting your salvation was not the end of Dan's story. This is where things stood on the day we recorded, and Dan would be the first to say all of it can change.

His cancer marker was a hundred and fifty when he was diagnosed, on a scale where the normal range tops out at thirty. When we spoke, it was nineteen. His cancer had been stable for about a year and a half and his blood work had come back into the green. He had gone from treatment every two weeks down to once a month, with a plan to stretch it further if the next scan held.

You will also hear about the week his heart rate fell into the twenties and a doctor told his wife she was lucky he had woken up at all. He has had a pacemaker since.

But the numbers are not the point, and Dan would say so himself. The point is that he got to tell you this.

WHAT YOU WILL HEAR IN THIS EPISODE

Two months of doubting your salvation, and nights he would not wish on his worst enemy

• The passage of Scripture that ended it
• Why he told a woman at church he was glad God gave him cancer
• A promise about healing, and the half of it most people leave out
• The heart scare nobody saw coming
• What he would say to himself on the very first day, if he could go back

YOU ARE NEVER ALONE

Whatever is happening to you tonight - in a treatment chair, in a waiting room, or in the dark at two in the morning doubting your salvation - the ending is already settled, and you did not have to secure it. You could not have.

The last thing Dan said was not to me. It was to you. "God loves each and every one of you that are suffering. He loves me. I love you. Blaine loves you. That's why we do this."

He is right. That is exactly why we do this.

If you are reading this and realizing you do not have that relationship with Jesus, or that you had one once and it has gone cold or weak or angry, please visit our Accepting Jesus page. Everything Dan has told us across these five episodes runs straight through that one decision.

You are NEVER ALONE. Never. And it is going to be all right.